Day 1

Dear Future Me,

Today is the day I have decided to start. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today is the day that the healing process needs to be journaled. The healing has been ongoing for quite some time now and I am making great strides; however now is the time to share it with you.

I have to admit that I have been avoiding the revelation of these events. Ignoring the pain means it’s not there.... no, ignoring the pain means the wounds never completely heal and perhaps they may even get worse deeper down inside of me. This will also prevent me from allowing Jesus, our great physician, an opportunity to restore and renew me back to the creation he has orginally created me to be.

What are the wounds and what are the incidents that were so painful & abusive that they took my power so long ago? Where did it all begin? Finding ground zero in all of this has been quite a feat in itself. It’s discovery is an abyss and a tangled mess. Taking the time to trace back farther and farther into history and persistently deep diving, has exposed the genesis of so many wounds.

There is not just one identified offender, that created this necessary repair, but rather many. Surfaced were wouds from generational curses, death, abandonment, rejection, neglect, abuse, and narcissism… and other closely connected to these as well. This is a wonderful list to use as a starting point to reveal to you the why behind the what of it all. It is also an incredible miracle in the making of my journey from hurting to healing.

A vital key of importance for you to know is that forgiveness is step one in the healing process of internal wounds. I quickly found out that wounds may have many layers and the pain of a wound may be deeply rooted. Embracing this concept took some time and was a tough pill to swallow. However, as forgiveness happened (or perhaps I should say as it is still happening) I’ve discovered that it is certainly an experiene that presents with daily uniqueness.

Just as with any other wound, it takes time, attention, and patience for it to fully heal. Similar to the way a physical wound needs proper cleaning and bandage changing, so do the internal wounds of the heart, mind, soul, and spirit. Though slow at first, over time the positive results start to manifest themselves. This is when you know your efforts are paying off and that you are headed in the ordained direction. This is when you embrace the process and take courage to forge ahead to the next step.

This is just the beginning of a magnificent and wonderful journal of events that shares a bit of my progress from hurting to healing. It's exciting and motivating. I hope it inspires others to find beauty for their ashes too.

Blessings,

~ Faye ~

I was led to a wonderful series on YouTube related to this topic of healing and I’d like to give credit:

Thandiwe Alita has her “With Love” Healing Women Series (https://youtu.be/nuVLOb1mf1U) it is one of the many puzzle pieces that ignited the starting point of my journal journey.